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palindrome
2006-01-31 @ 10:27 a.m.
yesterday i wrote: i am feeling crappy. sad really. really sad. this process of ang packing up and moving out is so much harder than i'd thought it would be. i don't have words for any of this. throughout it, i haven't had words. and the challenge is not to let the quiet sadness pull down into an isolated depression.
today is more, i don't know. still lacking words. clingy might be one. grasping might be another.
sometimes i make things out to be more than they are. maybe this is all just what it is: transition, change. and all the feelings that come with it are understandable.
it's like i don't know how to deal with things if they're not a huge dramatic flurry. or that i'm not used to it. but i think maybe i might be interested in getting used to things not being a big dramatic flurry. drama is fun, but it's fucking tiring.
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